I never blog anymore? What the heck is up with thattttt?
Anyways, I guess I'll start blogging again!
Yay! Actually, I don't know if that's a "yay." Honestly, nobody reads thissss.
Anyways,
I have something to say.
So much has changed... More than "so much." A lot of things have changed since the last time I wrote a blog and I hate it!
I know its wrong to hate things, but what I guess I mean to say is that I am displeased with the changes that have take place.
The last time I blogged, things were in the process of changing, but it was not until things really started to changed did I actually begin to notice the changes.
At this point in time, I don't feel quite comfortable expressing the changes that have occurred, but what I will say is that people are the main change.
Not multiple people, but two that I can think of.
I lost two of my best friends and honestly, it hurts.
A lot of times I think it was because of something I may have said, or even did, but I don't know how true that is. The thought that something may be wrong with me still occurs in my head. Okay, let's be honest, I think of it all the time. I mean, you would think the same thing, wouldn't you? Its like this: One day you have these two people (maybe more.. depending on who you are.) and then suddenly one day they decided they would rather talk to somebody other than you, or they would rather spend time with other people.
Hrmmm... Let me give you another example... There was this person I trusted my life with. We hung out all the time... We were best friends and then SUDDENLY that person decided, "HEY! I'm going to go hang out with these people randomly today..." and just like that, I lost my best friend.
ANOTHER example. I had this friend, I don't know if I would call them 'my best friend,' but we were pretty dang close, and we use to talk on the phone ever five seconds of every dang hour, and then one day, the calls became less and less, until... BAM. The calls stopped, the texts stopped, everything just plain stopped.
I seriously cried so many times over both of these people. But honestly, my tears did nothing. I've tried talking to both of these people about it, and quite obviously, these people don't feel the same about the situation that I feel.
I know I shouldn't feel this way, or care this much, but I do. I just can't help myself. I don't know if there's a specific reason behind my.. my... I don't know what to call it?!
ANYWAYS.
I'm gonna go sing... and play the guitar. (said like... geeeeee-tar. )
