BLAH.

I never blog anymore? What the heck is up with thattttt?
Anyways, I guess I'll start blogging again!
Yay! Actually, I don't know if that's a "yay." Honestly, nobody reads thissss.
Anyways,
I have something to say.
So much has changed... More than "so much." A lot of things have changed since the last time I wrote a blog and I hate it!
I know its wrong to hate things, but what I guess I mean to say is that I am displeased with the changes that have take place.
The last time I blogged, things were in the process of changing, but it was not until things really started to changed did I actually begin to notice the changes.
At this point in time, I don't feel quite comfortable expressing the changes that have occurred, but what I will say is that people are the main change.
Not multiple people, but two that I can think of.
I lost two of my best friends and honestly, it hurts.
A lot of times I think it was because of something I may have said, or even did, but I don't know how true that is.  The thought that something may be wrong with me still occurs in my head. Okay, let's  be honest, I think of it all the time. I mean, you would think the same thing, wouldn't you? Its like this: One day you have these two people (maybe more.. depending on who you are.) and then suddenly one day they decided they would rather talk to somebody other than you, or they would rather spend time with other people.
Hrmmm... Let me give you another example... There was this person I trusted my life with. We hung out all the time... We were best friends and then SUDDENLY that person decided, "HEY! I'm going to go hang out with these people randomly today..." and just like that, I lost my best friend.
ANOTHER example. I had this friend, I don't know if I would call them 'my best friend,' but we were pretty dang close, and we use to talk on the phone ever five seconds of every dang hour, and then one day, the calls became less and less, until... BAM. The calls stopped, the texts stopped, everything just plain stopped.
 I seriously cried so many times over both of these people. But honestly, my tears did nothing. I've tried talking to both of these people about it, and quite obviously, these people don't feel the same about the situation that I feel.
I know I shouldn't feel this way, or care this much, but I do. I just can't help myself. I don't know if there's a specific reason behind my.. my... I don't know what to call it?!
ANYWAYS.
I'm gonna go sing... and play the guitar. (said like... geeeeee-tar. )

I'm pretty sure I'm in love with the idea of blogging? Is that even possible? WHO CARES. 

Anyways. Seriously, this is what's up.. 

I passed a Biology test today AND I passed a Math quiz? Uhm.. Yea.. For. Real. 

Haha. Today has been great.. Although I'm still sick.. This has been going on for THREE weeks.. ( : 

Its SUPER fun. ha. 

Uhm. So.. I'm gonna go? 

'Cause I'm sick. SO. Uh, 

Buhye. 

~Sarah Hope

I wanna yearn for you..

What I have to say today isn't very much... But it has a lot of meaning.. To me, at least. 
Today at church, Anna and Zac played a song while we listened to the words and basically meditated on the meaning of them and how we can apply it to our lives. 
Now, I want you to know that when I listened to these words, I wept. The words are SO powerful and SO true, 
So today, I'm going to leave you with the words and really just read over them and acknowledge the meaning of them... 

                                             Holy design

                                         This place in time

                            That I might seek your face, my God

                                               My God

                                Lord I want to yearn for You

                                I want to burn with passion

                                  Over You, and only You

                                Lord I want to yearn for You

                                I want to burn with passion

                                   Over You, and only You

                                    Lord I want to yearn

                                     Your joy is mine

                                    Yet why am i fine

                          With all my singing and bringing grain

                                       In light of Him

                              Oh You give life and breath

                               In You we live and move

                                  That's why I sing

~Sarah Hope  

Today, I actually have something to write! 
Okay, so, I'm reading this book by this amazing Christian man called "Crazy Love." 
I've actually mentioned the book once in a blog a while back. 
But anyways, today, the part of the book I was reading about was talking about lukewarm Christians. 
Basically, the book was describing how being a lukewarm Christian is not and option. 
As I'm sure you know, you are either for God or against God. There is really no option in between. 
The Author, Francis Chan, was talking about how people always come up to him and ask "Can I be a Christian if I commit suicide?" "Can I be a Christian if I do drugs?" Do you know what those questions show? 
They show that people still want to live a sinful life and not devote their WHOLE lives to God.
As you know, there is a verse in the Bible that talks about daily taking up your cross to follow God. 
How can you be taking up your cross daily if you're too concerned with worldly things? 
In Revelations 3:15-17, the Bible says

I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. You say, 'I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.' But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked...

Now, take note when it says that God will spit us out of his mouth.. If you didn't know, this is the ONE AND ONLY time the word spit is EVER used in the whole New Testament. 
That's seriously a HUGE thing. 
There is seriously no possible way to be a "lukewarm Christian." 
As I'm sure you've heard many times before, "If you're not walking with God, you are walking with the devil." 
Really, when you being a lukewarm Christian, you are saying "sure, there's a God, I just don't want to submit to Him." 
I hate to say this, but that is exactly what the demons and EVEN the devil say.. 
They know there is a God... They just don't walk with Him. 
So, remember this.. 
But also remember that nobody's perfect, (ha. Hannah Montana song...) and everybody make's mistakes. 
~Sarah Hope

Wowo. Today was.. A Monday for sure. Haha 
Let's seeee. I'm still sick. YAYA. NOT. 
I went to the doctor today, they gave me medicine.. 
When we went to go get it from the pharmacy, they said they wouldn't have it ready until the 25th of October. 
HA HA HA. 
Thats not ever close to being funny. I've been sick for three weeks, yes, three, and my pharmacy won't give me my medicine. Fun. 
Anyways, 
Our basement is flooding. How fun. 
So, my grandpa turned the water off, butttt he turns it on when we really need it.. 
Uhm. Let's see.. Oh, while I was showering, my grandpa turned the water off.. Not cooool. 
I promise, when I feel better and have more time, I'll for sure actually blog. 
I had something I was going to write about and then today got busy. So, I'll push it off until tomorrow.. 
Anywho,
I'm off to my bedddd. 
Peace!
~Sarah Hope

Uhm. Okay.
SO! I'm watching "Sister Wives." 
Uhm.. How disgusting! 
Why in the world would someone EVER marry more than one person. 
I find it SO disgusting. Like, I just can't explain how gross that is..
I'm pretty sure I'm not the only person who finds this disgusting.. Or I hope I'm not. 
Have any of y'all ever seen that show? 
This is actually my first time ever watching it and I'm already so grossed out by it. 
But anyways, 
I'm still totally sick.. I'm most likely going to the doctor again tomorrow. 
I would rather not go, but hopefully it'll make me better? 
Psh, I doubt it.. But it may be better. 
But anyways, I'm gonna go. 
So. Adios!
~Sarah Hope. 
PS: I say "so" a lot... 

Oh, don't you just lovveee my pointless blogs? 
'Cause I sure do! 
Ha. NOT. 
Seriously, between my writers block and my being sick, I can never think of anything to say! 
So, I think I'll just tell you about my day yesterday and today? 
Let's see.. 
Yesterday was my mom's birthday and my baby brother's birthday! 
He turned 6 yesterday, soo we had a birthday party for me! I saw my sister who I hadn't seen in 9 months yesterday.. That was actually the best part of the day.. 
But.. I was sooo sick yesterday. So that was kinda not fun. 
And today, I was suppose to go do some family thing but I didn't because 
I was sick. I also didn't get to go to the corn maze : / 
BUT hopefully I'll feel better soon!!
~Sarah Hope